When I started this blog, I promised myself that I would try to be as transparent as possible when documenting this journey we are on with adoption, so our child could know how their own personal journey begins. This past week was a VERY difficult blow for us. We received news that the agency we were working with could not help us. After almost four months, we are in search of a new agency and a new plan. This has been so hard that even typing this is painfully difficult. We have tried to have a child for so long, and the first door we walk into has closed in our faces. For me personally, this has shaken me to the point where I do not know where to go from here. I know some of you may be thinking, well you just started you have to expect to have some let downs right? But, getting to this point of finding an agency, filling out a mountain of paperwork, and getting excited (even though I told myself I won't) has shaken us. This is a very difficult time, but we have already begun seeking other options. We know that this is in God's in control and feel like HE WILL ABSOLUTELY PROVIDE!!! This time is somewhat of a turning point personally as well,because it is very difficult to find people who can relate and some days it is all I can do but smile and try not to think about it... but it is devastating. Thanks to all of you (you know who you are) who have listened and encouraged us this week- you guys have been great.We know that God will help us through this time and HE will show us what is next. We ask for your prayers as we try to move forward.
I just discovered this blog for the first time. I applaud you for being so open about what you are feeling and recording all these steps for your little one. One day, he/she will be so blessed to know that they were thought of, planned for, loved, and prayed for even before they made it to your arms. I am sorry to hear of this set back, but your child must not be connected with that agency. God will lead you to the right place! Blessings, Valerie
ReplyDeleteI have to say, you inspire me!! I can't imagine having that news and then the agency failing to help when you are just knowing they can!! I will say, keep your heads up, GOD is in CONTROL and Ron's aunt just adopted Samantha Joyce a little over a year ago after many years of infertility. God knew exactly when and who he had picked for them - - she is absolutely beautiful and completely FITS our family!! We are praying for you both and miss you very much!!! In Christ, Christy Judy
ReplyDeleteHi Christina! My name is Marci and Janet sent me to your blog. My husband and I tried for 5 years to conceive before we decided to adopt. We took the “MAPP” classes through the state of FL to adopt through them, but after we got certified, God had other plans for us. We adopted two beautiful boys from families that God brought our way. Because we had gotten certified through the state, we were able to just get an attorney and have private adoptions. We were there at each of there births and they are 15 months apart. They are now almost 9 and 8 years old and God has also blessed us with 3 more biological children as well. Even when you don’t understand the set backs, know that God is at work and His plans are better than we could ever imagine!
ReplyDeleteMy heart now is to walk beside anyone that is experiencing the pain that I went through. I’d love to be there for you to answer questions or just to listen! I think Janet gave you my website: www.marcishirley.com and my number is 321-331-3796.
Please don’t hesitate to call!