I am right here sweet son...

This morning it dawned on me how upset our little man gets when he cannot see me, although I am in the same room. Each time he fusses I say " I am right here son, mommy is right here and will never leave you." Well, truth be told this not entirely true, one day I will be leaving him at school for the first time,dropping him off to college, or watching him drive away in his first car, and even watching him get married! All things I want for him so VERY much but letting go is sooooo very hard even at his current age, I mean I had a total meltdown recently when I left him in the church nursery for the very first time so the thought of him not needing me so much one day saddens me. Truth be told he will leave me too one day and grow up and have a life of his own and will not need me quite as much as he needs me now. To me that is sad but it is the reality. It is amazing how much LOVE for your child changes who you are, the decisions you make, and how you even think on a daily basis. LOVE for J.B. is like LOVE I have never felt before in my life and all I want to do is ensure he is safe like when he was in my stomach. When he was in my stomach my body protected him while he grew inside of me, now that he is outside of me I want him to always be safe and ensure he has Jesus in his heart, is happy, is always healthy, make sure he never feels pain, and never has to deal with a broken heart but as you know many of those things are completely out of my own control. As a mom you want the very best for your child but like a close friend said to me recently "you raise them to be independent." It is our job as his parents to serve as Godly role models and make sure he is equipped to handle what this world throws at him.As much as we want to protect him, we realize as parents that God will help us to help him with whatever happens in his life and that our trust is in GOD ALONE! We love you J.B. so much, God created you and gave us you and we know you will do AMAZING and MAGNIFICENT THINGS!